As I wrote earlier when I am at the second job this my "me" time either alone with God so I can not only talk to him but to listen to Him talk to me or I have my iPod listening to music podcasts from my brothers and sisters (I haven't listened to Leo and the gang for a minute although I finally began listening to the latest TWiT episode while heading to pick up the Mrs.) or talk podcasts and two really cut me and healed me at the same time.
The Meltdown by Suni T is a awesome podcast because she puts her heart out there each and every time talking about mental health, how she truly feels, what she is struggling with day in and day out and her two podcast "The Do Nothing Attitude" and "Choose Your Mood" really spoke to my heart, soul, and mind. "Choose Your Mood" hit me hard because for me this year so far has been a challenge to say the least. Struggling with me being out of work for a while, not timing it right with my unemployment benefits, finally finding work and playing catch up with personal issues has made me feel isolated from the internet. It brought out the ugliness in the person who I thought I could truly rely on and is making me rethink things in reference to love, relationship, trust.
It's amazing how when you are "burned" by them in reference to their actions and it bites not only them but yourself how the attitude is, "I'm sorry but what's done is done". But when the shoe is on the other foot all hell breaks loose. I have put up with a lot of mess from this person and for them to turn on me like this was really hurtful. Suni's podcast, "Choose Your Mood" really made me rethink some issues. I know it drains her to record them but I hope she keeps them coming because tonight her podcasts really has made me realize so much about myself, how much I have grown and more important, getting to know "me" again.
This year I truly feel many of us who first joined Vox will be blogging more because so much is going on in our lives. We have grown so much. We came to Vox for fun, kind of left Vox because either with our busy schedule or just didn't feel like writing and now we are coming back home and we will begin getting in touch with one another again. Vox hasn't change...I have and now it's time for me to come back home. What Suni podcasts did for me today is that (1) I am not only and (2) Sometimes you have to push your way through situations, learn to love yourself, and realize that life is not and will not be perfect but not to let it beat you down.
Thanks lil' sis...you do not know how much your two shows helped me tonight. ^_^
[this is good] omg u got me in tears. i dont even know what to say other than to God be the glory that I am able to put my soul out there and help other people in the process.
Posted by: BULLETPROOFsoul | 07/23/2008 at 03:03 AM
you are so gifted at your craft and truly enjoy listening to your voice and your messages you bring so don't you EVER think that what you are doing is not making a difference because it is. The journey you take the listeners through we all can relate one way or another. God has been blessing our podcasting community with many talents and abilities and in the end it is making better people of us all. ^_^
Be Blessed{you and yours}
Posted by: TechMusicGospel | 07/23/2008 at 04:50 AM